My Best Kept Secret About Becoming An Entrepreneur
Updated: May 23, 2020
Someone asked me recently, “After ten years of business, do you still struggle with doubt and fear?”.
And, I answered without a pause, “Absolutely.”
After a moment of self-reflection, I went on to confess my best kept secret about becoming a heart centered entrepreneur.
Becoming an entrepreneur shattered all my previous beliefs about courage, strength and vulnerability.
Speaking about my vulnerabilities became my strength and leaning into fear took more courage than fearlessness had ever required of me.
All of these traits, which I once sought to embrace, slid down the list in ways that I couldn’t have imagined. And, somehow, I came to possess them anyway as a result of letting this creative work break me open and remake me along the way.
So, after ten years of being an entrepreneur, am I still afraid? Do I still wake up at night anxious or unsure?
Yet, after the first few years of letting fear have its way with me, I learned a new way to sit with it and hold it’s hand.
I learned to breathe out fear and doubt and breathe in love and trust.
I discovered that I could challenge those doubts with curiosity.
I remembered that I had a community that loved, encouraged and supported me.
I began to surrender and allow my heart to swell with gratitude.
I started to accept that I am soft and breakable and human.
I began to lean into the fear and take it’s hand. To feel the hold it takes around my heart, and keep breathing.
And, then, something magical began to happen…
The critical voices died down and self-compassion came to tend my wounds.
Trust in my capacity to feel the fear and emerge more whole, deepened.
I began to trust my ability to become comfortable with uncertainty.
I discovered that I was most courageous when I allowed my body to shake with vulnerability.
I began to trust again the knowledge that the Universe is my benefactor, holding out her hand to catch my dangling feet, to shower me with all that I need to complete what is mine to do in this world.
And, honestly, I don’t know if I would have learned this lesson so completely and so soon in my life if I hadn’t decided to become an entrepreneur. To commit to birthing a vision into being. To show up with such raw vulnerability, committed to creating something that was only an emerging speck of possibility.
So, I humbly surrender to the unknown and celebrate the acquisition of curiosity, self-compassion, and deep trust in my ability to love through fear.
I surrender my desire to become fearless and embrace my ability to hold it's hand, through the ebb and flow of the entrepreneurial journey.
And, if you find yourself on this path, and feel that you can benefit from some support to stay the course, I welcome you to schedule a complimentary session to explore that ways that somatic psychotherapy can help you experience more connection, more trust and a deeper awareness of yourself while in pursuit of your calling.